I’ve begun to see everything as a ‘project’. It’s a very sick way to organize my life I realize, but it means that I do get a lot of things done….perhaps a few too many things.
I break everything into small mini-projects, determining all the intermediate steps to take so that the end is predictable. The upside is that I have a lot of things going on at any one time because I can juggle a lot of ‘bits’ simultaneously. The downside is that I have a lot of things going on at any one time, so people think I can manage all that’s going on. The result: I’m really not slowing down!!!!
Part of me thinks that this is just my way of dealing with the ambiguity of ‘retirement/unemployment’. The other part of me thinks I’m a complete loser because I can’t slow down. Then there’s another part that actually rationalizes this by thinking this is just the way I am.
I really do need some help! So what if I can take 4 writing courses, guitar lessons, guitar practice, do pro-bono project management work with 2 non-profits, meet friends for coffee, get a bit of exercise in, grocery shopping, laundry, shovel snow, create family calendars, book the side trips for our trip in Malaysia, AND keep some semblance of sanity!? REALLY!!?
HELP!!!
I was just thinking of writing about how I hate being busy, and yet I am always busy. I find it difficult to decide what things to remove from the list, in order to slow down. Without thought, I have stopped doing things like laundry, cleaning and cooking as often as I used to. Maybe not the best strategy.
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